19 12 / 2011
12/8/10.
“Baby i’m so fucking sick of being like this. We want the same things! We just want to be together and be mutually happy and dependent on each other. I have to imagine that you want me to be as happy as i can be, and i want it to in order to maximize my potential contribution to your happiness. If i can somehow manage to convince you, to show you that you just have to take a chance and believe that i desire being only yours, that i will not hurt you again, and that i am not only sorry for everything i have ever done to hurt you, but no amount of forgiveness, no matter how easily or difficultly obtained, will ever lead me to take this for granted. Can i show you that the key is the same it has always been? To just close your eyes and fall and see if i catch you. Shower me in love and everything you adore about me and laugh at my flaws as they are so meek when trying to dent the magnitude of your love for me and then watch me, your star, absorb and reflect that love. Watch me keep you safe against all evil. Watch me return that love in the magnificent way you know that i can when i am given your unconditional love. Watch me watch you. Watch us fill each other with something no one can take. Watch: i will be the best thing you ever came across as you have been for me. We will be the idea of love and the envy of the world and as the different evils and temptations of the world attempt to twist our views and fracture our bond, the hand of those attempts will be made to feel small as it finds our bond unbreakable. Unbreakable because you know what i know, that i want nothing but you as surely as you know you want me. You will always just KNOW with unwavering confidence. You just have to believe.”
